Thursday, October 12, 2017

"Why are you doing this to me God?" with Corrie Waters

This past weekend, my wife Corrie brought us a powerful message on living in the Freedom of Christ and not living in the Pain of our Past. Here are her notes. Let us know if you'd like for us to share the podcast with you.


Welcome, we are glad that you here with us today.

In 2000, Adam and I had the honor of being Youth Pastors…I know, right?!? Honor? But yes, it was an honor to see these kids grow into the fullness of who God was calling them to be.  To give you a little back story when we arrived to the church the youth group had 5 kids…when we left that ministry after 4 years the youth group had grown to over 100 kids. Amazing! But even though our ministry was growing there was “controversy” over what was happening.  You see the HS began to do things in our students… they began to move in the gifts, they became front row worshipers (taking their shoes off and dancing…gasp) they became movers and shakers for the kingdom…awesome, right? We thought so!  However, some of the elders in the church didn’t. You see we were in a very conservative church where the gifts of the spirit were frowned upon and worshiping with abandon was not ok.  On a warm summer Sunday, our journey at that church would soon change without our knowledge.  That following Monday, Adam was called into a meeting and told his job was ending with no explanation other than we don’t like what we are seeing.  We were told that we had to leave immediately and that we were to have no contact with the kids or their families. We were also told to tell no one (except for our families) what was happening and to leave quietly.   In that moment, I cannot describe to you the pain, the confusion and the frustration that was happening within us. As days went by, there were more meetings, some without us and some with us.  In one meeting, that I could be a part of, I had brought forth some concerns that I had witnessed (like sharing information that we were told not to share) from wives of elders in the church.  After bringing this situation up, one of the elders lunged across the table with his fists balled up ready to hit me, while 4 other elders held him back.  After this I walked out of the board room and collapsed to the ground in the doorway of the church office, sobbing. The elders that were in the meeting proceeded, literally, to step over me physically as if I was nothing… I was broken hearted, in pain and helpless…and the question that crossed my mind was “God is this you?” …
Pray…
  
As a church, we have been on a journey through the book and movie, “The Shack”.
If you haven’t seen or read The Shack yet, I urge you to.  And if you have been with us at all during this series you remember that after suffering a family tragedy of losing his young daughter Missy, the main character, Mack Phillips, spirals into a deep depression, causing him to question his innermost beliefs. Facing a crisis of faith, he receives a mysterious letter from Papa urging him to return to the abandoned shack where he once confirmed Missy’s death. Despite his doubts, Mack journeys back to the shack and encounters Papa, along with the rest of the trinity. Through this meeting, Mack finds important truths that will transform his understanding of his tragedy and change his life forever. Though this story is fictional, it is a rich and beautifully told story that provides us with such a wonderful picture of who our Papa is.
Over the last 3 weeks as a church we have uncovered:
            The first week Di – God’s personal invitation to know Him and to “Meet him at the                     Shack”.  We began to discover and ask the questions of what Shacks do I have in my           own life.
            The second week Clay – Did a great job of reminding us that Papa is especially fond of   you and that he has never left you.  He is always right beside you even during your pain.
            And last week Putty – The father sees us as “Wild, Wonderful and Perfectly in    Progress.” He doesn’t want us perfect because he takes delight in molding and shaping          us through our messiness.
Last week our clip was where Mack has just come from working in a wild and wonderful garden alongside Sarayu.  Later, after his encounter with her he runs into Jesus, who says He’d like to show Mack something on the other side of the lake. Jesus needs to finish something up first, so he encourages Mack to go on ahead in the rowboat. Mack does. It’s a beautiful setting, and Mack seems to be relaxing and enjoying it—briefly. Let’s watch.
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*“Why are you doing this to me?” Have you ever asked God that question?
Those words come so quickly and immediately, to Mack. It has become his default. Pain is real and sometimes time debilitating and just watching Mack’s struggle is enough to cause anxiety and doubt, isn’t it? It is so easy, and so natural, to become overwhelmed by our pain and circumstances. They are real and powerful, and they threaten us.
So, what about us? Maybe we have faced or are facing some hardships in our lives that have led us to a similar response: “Why are you doing this to me?” Maybe that has become our default, too. 
You see in this scene Mack wants to blame Jesus: “Why are you doing this to me? . . . You told me to come out here.”
But did you catch Jesus’s response? “This isn’t Me. . . . Mack, this is happening inside you. You’re letting it consume you, and you don’t have to.”
Such a powerful statement…You’re letting it consume you and you don’t have to.  How many times have we let our past consume our present? We push down our pain and problems and try to avoid them, hoping they’ll just go away on their own.  Or we play the blame game with God and reject his offers to heal us to receive freedom from our past.
Let’s look at what scripture has to say about how the Father feels about our past:
2 Corinthians 3:16-18 New Living Translation (NLT)
16 But whenever someone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. 17 For the Lord is the Spirit, and wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. 18 So all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord—who is the Spirit—makes us more and more like him as we are changed into his glorious image.
1.      Freedom in Christ.  If Christ is in us, why do we choose to live in our pain? If Christ is freedom, then freedom is already living inside of us. 

*Jesus says “Look at Me.”
“Just take a deep breath and listen to My voice.”
“Just keep your eyes on Me.”
“I’m not going anywhere.”

Pain is so real that panic sets in and we refuse to look, just like Mack.  But scripture has words of encouragement for us:

John 16:33 New Living Translation (NLT)

33 I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”
1.     The Father never tells us that we won’t have trouble or pains as a follower, BUT he does say take heart for I have overcome the world.  And because the world is his and we are in the world as his…we have peace that is him.

John 14:27 New Living Translation (NLT)

27 “I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.
1.     His peace is a gift that the world cannot give...

Ok, but how do you have this peace? Let’s look at what the psalmist had to say to sum it up:

 Psalm 121

A song for pilgrims ascending to Jerusalem.

I look up to the mountains—
    does my help come from there?
My help comes from the Lord,
    who made heaven and earth!
He will not let you stumble;
    the one who watches over you will not slumber.
Indeed, he who watches over Israel
    never slumbers or sleeps.
The Lord himself watches over you!
    The Lord stands beside you as your protective shade.
The sun will not harm you by day,
    nor the moon at night.
The Lord keeps you from all harm
    and watches over your life.
The Lord keeps watch over you as you come and go,
    both now and forever.

These are powerful promises from the New and Old Testament. A sign that our Papa’s words have never changed. They did not change in Mack’s situation and they do not change in our own situations.  God is calling to us as plainly as he called to Mack in the movie, “Look at Me”, “Just look at Me”.  Your moments of brokenness will be the Father’s greatest victory in your life.  Your stories matter because they are proof of what the Father can do when we just look at Him.
So, how do we get beyond the boat? Let’s see what happens to Mack after he decides to look at Jesus:
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You know, this scene on the water with Mack can’t help but remind me of an experience that Peter had in a boat on a lake. We can find it in Matthew 14, but you probably know the story well. Jesus has already had a busy day feeding the 5,000 and everyone was tired...we are going to pick up verse 22
Read Matthew 14:22-33 - Jesus Walks on Water
22 Immediately after this, Jesus insisted that his disciples get back into the boat and cross to the other side of the lake, while he sent the people home. 23 After sending them home, he went up into the hills by himself to pray. Night fell while he was there alone.
24 Meanwhile, the disciples were in trouble far away from land, for a strong wind had risen, and they were fighting heavy waves. 25 About three o’clock in the morning[b] Jesus came toward them, walking on the water. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the water, they were terrified. In their fear, they cried out, “It’s a ghost!”
27 But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage. I am here![c]
28 Then Peter called to him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.”
29 “Yes, come,” Jesus said.
So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus.30 But when he saw the strong[d] wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted.
31 Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith, “Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?”
32 When they climbed back into the boat, the wind stopped. 33 Then the disciples worshiped him. “You really are the Son of God!” they exclaimed.
Peter somehow knew that the safest place he could be was with Jesus or he was just trying to escape his fear by facing it head-on, but to Peter’s credit, he went. Peter climbed over the side of the boat and took a step on the water toward Jesus. Things started off just fine and there was Peter, standing on top of the stormy water. But then he started looking at the wind and the chaos around him, and he began to sink. Peter’s fear overtook him after all, and as the water closed in around him, Peter cried out for Jesus to save him.  And Jesus, “immediately reached out and grabbed him”
1.    The key word is immediately…he didn’t tell Peter to wait, he didn’t sit back and watch him suffer through his fear and pain, He WAS immediate.
2.    The Father is immediate…there was no waiting, just saving.  Just like an earthly parent when our child falls from their bike or falls and scraps their knee we run to them scooping them up to take care of the pain.
When we recalibrate our focus away from the blame of “Why are you doing this to me?” to the trust of “Look at Me,” we find that God has even more in store.  We can begin to see the Father in our future rather the pains in our past.
Let’s revisit Adam and my story for a moment.  Was the pain of losing relationships and the ministry we built painful? Or being hurt by those you trusted in leadership above you. Yes, very and times very debilitating.  Almost to the point I never wanted to step foot in a church again to be a part of formal ministry.  Did I cry out and ask the Father why this was happening to us, and is this you God? Yes, I did.  Did the Father answer me…Yes, he did! Do you know what he said? “LOOK AT ME!” Was it a journey of healing after that, yes it was! Was the process hard? Yes!! But if I focused on him and kept my eyes where they were supposed to be I was ok.  And because we CHOSE to live in a place of eyes locked and no looking back…a lot of those relationships that were destroyed are now restored.  And we are still in ministry J
You see…God is always calling us to Himself. Relationship lies at the essence of who He is.  The trinity is never apart, but always working together and in relationship with one another. And just like them relationship with Him is the heart of how we are meant to live this life.
Our boats feel safe and sometimes it feels like the only means we have of surviving. However, that’s only true if all that we have is our own ability and our own limitations…but the Father promises to never abandon us and that he is in the middle of it all:

Deuteronomy 31:6 New Living Translation (NLT)

So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.”
So, what 3 practical steps can you walk away with today:
1.     Stop – Don’t allow yourself to live in a place where all you are seeing is your pain
2.     Focus – Get yourself to a place where you can hear Him say: “Just take a deep breath and listen to My voice, keep your eyes on Me, because I am not going anywhere.” Lock eyes with the Father and don’t turn back.
3.     Move – Make an active choice to get out your boat.  You are not made to stay there because it is not the Father best for you. God wants to show you the reality you can experience together in relationship with Him.

Relationship is where we can move beyond “Why are you doing this to me?” to those “Look at me” moments.  We move from a question to a statement.    In the face of the brokenness, despite our pain and suffering and problems, we KNOW God’s heart and his heart is for us.